One day I will go up to the hot girl and ask her to dance. Or start a conersation.

One day I will have that kind of confidence.

One day it won't bother me if I'm turned down because really whats the harm in asking? Even if the answer isn't what you want.

Maybe I should stop always making it one day and make it tonight.

I'm happy for the Grads.

No I really am. Like yay for 12 years of school they survived and all that.

But do they really need all that cake. I think I'm going to start pointing out the nutritional content. So none whatsoever. Unless the butter cream counts as dairy. Also somebody needs to tell them that the photos they put on the cake do get cut into which doesn't set a good example for things to come. And then they eat themselves. Hm... perhaps that's the appeal.

I love how I'm all cranky about it but I too had a graduation cake with a photo on it. And ate myself.

In my defense it was better eating the cake then giving them out. And I can't remember as far back as my graduation. My attention span is like 2 minutes.

Swimsuit shopping today. I don't know if I'm ready for it yet but whatever. I'm going to the lake tomorrow so I best get over it.

So I've decided to just post things that I've randomly written. Mostly I don't share anything I write with people but I feel like in order to get better I'm going to eventually have to get over that little problem. Most of what I write is just scenes or moments or ramblings. I get ideas but can never get my brain together enough to put it all together. So what comes out is little bits that have a lot of back story and endings in my head but I can't seem to translate it all to paper or an open word document.

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Even been so close to a goal and somehow it seems even farther away then when you started? How am I supposed to keep my motivation when I'm at a stand still? Grrrrrrrrr! Am I ever going to get there?

But I absolutely refuse to give up. There is no way I'm half assing this like I normally do. I worked to hard to get to were I am and knowing where I want to be. I feel like if I keep reminding myself of this fact then I'll get through this vaguely similar to watching the grass grow rut I'm in.

It doesn't last forever right?

Totally just found out my mommy is a Dorothy/Scarecrow shipper. Hehe I love that woman.

On a totally different note I came out to a coworker today. It's weird cause I'm out. Like I don't hide it and everybody I care about knows. I mean my GRANDMA knows for fuck sake. But sometimes when I find people that don't know I still kinda pause before telling them. It's like saying it for the first time all over again and I get tongue tied. I worry about their reaction and stupid stuff like that. I guess I'm just wondering if that ever goes away? I kinda feel like people should just know without me saying anything, I mean how many times am I going to have to say it. Straight people don't have these problems lol

Title Untitled
Rating PG-13, I think a bad word or two
Disclaimer I don't own them
A/N This is not going to make any sense to anybody. It's part of a fic that I had an idea for but could never get out the way I wanted. This is a scene from that and it's not fully where I want it to be either but it's been on my computer for awhile so I thought I'd post it anyway.
A/N2 This has never seen a beta.

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Title: Always Be There
Pairing: Spashley
Rating: PG-13 for launguage I guess
Disclaimer: I own nothing if that wasn't obvious
A/N So I posted this some time back elsewhere but since I'm going to try to start posting stuff here I thought I might as well put it here too. It's the first and only fic type thing I've written and posted. I think that shows but oh well. I remember being scared shitless when I first pressed that post button for this the first time. It's not really all that much better this time around.
A/N 2 This is AU and totally OOC as well.


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I feel like an idiot but that is nothing new. I'm thingking I'm taking the long way here. That there is a shortened way to be doing this. But I figure if I can just get something going I can figure the rest out later.

Looking back I should have put that last part under the cut and left the part under the cut not under the cut.

Yeah...

I don't even know what I meant there.

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I'm not sure I should be so proud of myself if this works but I most likely will be exstatic.

ETA: Yep extemely pleased with myself over here.